interested in my work and another that does want to publish my book and is also
interested in publishing my other two books. I told them that one is not for the
public but just for my grandkids, and they said that was one of the reasons they
wanted to publish it because it was for/to them and of what kind of life
I grew up in, the places I went, lived, and the people I met along. I told both
publishers that I would get back to them, I really had to think about all of this
because it was so unexpected to be honest about it.
I have actually had to put all of my projects on hold for a while which means
my writing and my art...drawing, etc; because of having to take care of my
mother and my dad both especially for over a year, and trying to work a full
time job (which I have my own small business) and trying very hard to get it
up and going good has been so very hard for me! Not having any help hasn't
helped any either. I do have kids, but they have their families and full plates
of their own. If I do have to ask for help of course any one of them are to help
me but I try very hard not to ask for help from them. These are my parents not
my kids. I do have an aunt, she is my dad's sister and she has her own plate full
but if I were to call she would come running. My mother's side of the family is
a joke, they wanna know what's in it for them! I also have a brother.
There are some friends of my dad's that have helped me some but I hate asking
them too much for anything. I must say though they have been there when ever
I have had to ask and I am so grateful to them.
I like very much the type of work I do, I wish I hadn't gotten started in it so late
in life. I don't know if it's really where I'm suppose to be at this time in my life...but
I have been told by many that I am where I'm suppose to be at this time and it's
where God wants me. Don't know if that's true or not. I do know if I was where I
so wanted to be it would be up in the mountains in Colorado, Wyoming, Montana,
(really love it up in there) but Idaho would be ok with me too, even though I'm not
as familiar with it as I am the other states. Also New Mexico I'm very familiar with
and like it also up in the mountains there, New Mexico holds a special place for me
because it is where my husband was killed in a car accident. I have lived in Colorado
for a while and traveled thru the other states several times in my life, not to mention
all thru the southwest and northwest plus the rest of the lower 48.
I know I need to get a handle on things but at this time not quite sure how, I get
so frustrated with having so much on my plate and so much of the time it's very
over whelming. Taking care of two house holds, both parents, me and trying to
work full time and running to doctor appts. for both parents ( and my dad's doctor
appts. are all 2 1/2 hrs one way if the traffic is good).
I am excited about maybe having or getting a book published, I mean who wouldn't
be, but as I said it is very scary too. All I can do at this point is keep praying for help
from the GOOD LORD and asking for his BLESSING, even though I feel sometimes
he isn't listening to me, I know in my heart he is!
It's so funny because I have some friends and family that think there is no way that
I COULD HAVE A BOOK PUBLISHED...wouldn't that be a kick in the butt for them
if or WHEN I do! *LOL*